nothingtoberegretted

I was on my way in a public transportation toward my friend’s house and it was a pretty long journey to let me talk to myself in my mind.

It is funny to remember different achievements I ever set as my goal which each of them has their own time to appear in the past periodically while I am growing up. I ever decided to be consistent in one goal but time let me plan to have another one. I don’t know whether it is me who is not patient enough to wait or it is just my effort to make a back up plan. 

I conclude my short-term plan in three variables; A, B, and C. About 2 years ago, I set A as my priority whereas B and C will follow later. I just graduated from university at that time so I was still full of spirit to achieve A. But I failed because I lacked of preparation. Then I took B and set it as my priority whereas A was set as my long-term plan because it was not that hurry to achieve, probably I could do it after I got C. It lasted for a year. I tried to be focus, but still no good result. Maybe I have to make a new plan, more collaborated one. So recently, I back to achieve A while I am still working on B but still wish to keep C working on it’s right time. This is because I think I still enough time to achieve A. I have no idea whether it is A or B as the back up plan. They are like a parallel line for me. C is not a back up plan. This C is like a main plan of all but has it’s own right time to achieve. And because of this C I feel a little bit hurry to achieve A and B. 

Well, it seems I have a more complicated life but I want to try it first to avoid my self regret it someday. I am curious, then I try so that I get the result. It is much better than do nothing, there is no result. As long as I still have enough time to try, I’ll try.

Life is about uncertainty, well that is okay as long as you have God to rely on. Trusting God to lead your way makes you feel wholehearted to face any result. Yes I am a spiritual person, I fully trust God’s decision as long as I do my best and keep praying. I believe for every result I get is the best way God want me to have.

Dear God, Dear Mother, Dear Father, Dear Future Husband, Dear Future Children, Dear Human-being and earth,

I’ll do my best!